ranting

one thing i really hate is when people talk about other people behind their backs. its mostly women i have to say. and i hate that. especially because i picked a career that surrounds me with women and hardly any men. women are SO catty and stupid when it comes to talking about other people and stabbing people in the backs. why can't people just grow up?? i have talked to a couple people about this and everyone says that basically you get it anywhere. i HATE that. when i started working on this unit i was told that it was the worst unit in the hospital when it comes to that backstabbing and cattyness. i didn't believe it at first but the more i work here the more i see underneath the cover and see how mean everyone is to each other. they all act like friends but really they are running to the manager with every little things and being really immature about handling their problems. they sit around in the break room making fun of other people and then when they see those people they act all nice and friendly. seriously, if people talk behind my back and go running to the manager about me then don't act like we are friends because we aren't. most of the time now i think about how much i just want to quit working here and work by myself or only with a couple of other people that all get along and know how to handle issues. i dream about being my own boss and not having to deal with all the crappy politics of the hospital and the the cattyness of the women i work with. don't get me wrong there are people at work that i love and that aren't like the others but i have to say that i think the majority of them are catty and immature. the problem is that there is really nothing to do about it and that is what gets me. the manager can't seem to handle the issues but honestly what could he do? people are gonna talk no matter what? it's the same at my mom's office (mostly women), my dad's office (mostly men), as well as the workplaces of all the friends that i have talked to. you can never get away from it!!! grrrr! i just had to rant!!

food for thought

HOW OLD would you be if you didn't know how old you are?

some people
walk in the rain...
others just get wet... (roger miller)

life is too important
to be taken seriously
(oscar wilde)

our truest life is when
we are in dreams awake
(thoreau)

anything is possible (proverb)

live to the point of tears (camus)

yesterday is history
tomorrow is mystery
today is a gift
(eleanor roosevelt)

the purpose of life is
to live it,
to taste experience
to the utmost,
to reach out eagerly and
without fear
for newer and richer
experience.
(eleanor roosevelt)

hilarious

This is awesome!
bad day?...watch this.

you know you're a nurse if...

▸ when using a public restroom, you wash your hands with soap for a full minute and turn off the faucets with your elbows
▸ you find yourself checking out other customer's arm veins in grocery waiting lines
▸ your favorite dream is the one where you leave a mess at a patient's bedside and tell a doctor to clean it up
▸ everyone, including complete strangers, tells you about each and every ache and pain they have
▸ you want to put your foot through the TV screen every time you see a nurse on a soap opera doing nothing but talking on the phone and flirting with doctors
▸ you can almost SEE the germs on doorknobs and telephones
▸ you can watch the goriest movie and eat anything afterwards, even spaghetti with lots of tomato sauce
▸ you use a plastic 30cc medicine cup for a shotglass
▸ you've sworn you're going to have "NO CODE" tattooed on your chest
▸ you believe every patient needs TLC: Thorazine, Lorazepam and Compazine
▸ you would like to meet the inventor of the call light in a dark alley one night
▸ you believe not all patients are annoying ... some are unconscious
▸ you can only tell time with a 24 hour clock.
▸ almost everything can seem humorous ... eventually
▸ every time someone asks you for a pen, you can find at least three of them on you
▸ you can intubate your friends at parties
▸ you don't get excited about blood loss ... unless it's your own
▸ you live by the motto, "To be right is only half the battle, to convince the physician is more difficult."
▸ you've basted your Thanksgiving turkey with a toomey syringe
▸ you've told a confused patient your name was that of your coworker and to HOLLER if they need help
▸ when checking the level of orientation of a patient, you aren't sure of the answer
▸ you avoid unhealthy looking shoppers in the mall for fear that they'll drop near you and you'll have to do CPR on your day off

lemons

when life hands you a lemon, say, "oh yeah. i like lemons. what else you got?"
-henry rollins

just something to think about.

bursting at the seams

i just LOVE the hogans. from the top left: steph and paul (amazing parents of 5 kids), keyan elizabeth, mckenzy faith, abagayle grace, sidney ann, jamahl daniel (4yrs old). i spent the day with them as i do a lot and they are all just TOO cute! i can't even stand it! the whole family is amazing and i love them all so much like they are my own family. steph has been studying with me for boards and she gets on me worse than my own mother about how i procrastinate and will do anything to get out of studying but i am so thankful for everything she does and i don't know how i would get through this nclex crap without her. i watch steph as a mother and i can only hope to one day be as good of a mom as she is (as well as my own wonderful mother)! steph's parents live with them too and they are also great! no pictures of them though. :( i was just sitting here in steph's sunroom tonight studying and i started thinking about how i just have this bursting love for so many people in my life right now and i wanted to write it all down (after i finished studying of course). steph and i went to captain sundae's to eat ice cream and study tonight and then we stopped at my house on the way back and when i saw my parents i felt like i missed them so much since moving out and i just wanted to hug them forever. i felt like i loved them so much i could cry. then i was thinking about the hogans and how they have pretty much adopted me right into their family even when there are already 5 kids and 4 adults in one house and i just feel so lucky to have the family(ies) that i do! i am one lucky girl! i feel like i can't even put into words how appreciative i am to the hogan family for everything they do for me and for my own parents and all the support i get from everyone. i don't feel like this entry really was able to explain half of what i wanted it to. i guess there are just no words to describe how i feel. steph is the greatest friend in the world, the babies and jamahl are too cute for words, paul cracks me up, my parents rock my socks off, and i can't thank anyone enough!

the good things in life

i learn not to take things for granted when i am up in ludington. i am so lucky to have the family that i have and to have a place that we can spend the weekends at on a lake that is so beautiful and to be able to do the things we do there. i just love laying in the front of the boat with the wind in my hair and the sun on my face speeding across the lake. i cant get over how beautiful everything is there and the fun that i have with my family. me, my brother, and his girlfriend went tubing behind the boat as the sun was going down and it was so much fun. then my brother went wakeboarding and i got some awesome pictures of him with the sun behind him. i also got to see one of my heros ryan spencer reed while i was up in ludington. ryan is a photographer who travels to sudan and takes pictures of the things that are going on in sudan. his pictures are asolutely amazing. ryan has my dream job. ryan's dad and brother are photographers who live in ludington and take pictures of all the local scenery. they are amazing as well. i met ryan at a gallery at hope college about a year ago and he taught me some things about photography as well as teaching me how i could become a photojournalist like him. he remembered me when i ran into him at the gallery in ludington. happy fourth of july by the way! always remember to take some time to check out the scenery and realize how good god is and take pride in what you have and spend time with the people you love.