meredith grey is my idol

So this is a quote from Meredith Grey of Grey's Anatomy and I love her cause she is awesome! I just love it! And I especially love the last part. It is a perfect way to describe how I feel sometimes when I wake up in the morning.

"Okay, the man I love has a wife. And then he chooses her over me. And that wife takes my dog. Okay, she didn't take the dog, I gave it to her. But I didn't mean to give it to her, I meant to give it to him. But that does not change the fact that she's got MY McDreamy. And MY McDog. She has got my McLife. And what have I got?! Do you know I can't remember the last time we kissed? Because you never think the last time is the last time. You think there'll be more. You think you have forever but you don't. Plus, my conditioner decided to stop working and I think I have brittle bones. I just... I just need something to happen. I need a sign that things are going to change. I need a reason to go on. I need some hope. And in the absence of hope, I need to stay in bed and feel like I might die today."