bring on the rain

so i just had a mental breakdown. i was watching a gvsu nursing student do all the patient care that i used to do but am not allowed to do anymore since not passing boards. and then i got a really crappy assignment and i am already tired this being my third night in a row and i started thinking about all the studying i still have to do and how much longer it will be before i take boards which means i do this job for that much longer and i called my dad and fell apart. both my dad and my friend bridget told me that even though it is really easy to notice and think about the crappy things and all the bad things i don't like, i have to try to change my attitude and think about the good things. so here goes:
* i have an awesome apartment that is fully furnished and even though i can't pay the rent now, i have awesome parents who are helping me out so that i wont lose it
* i have a cute furry cat who keeps me company even though she ransacks my house
* i have health insurance, a 401K, PTO time, and a job that keeps me on and doesn't kick me out even though i failed boards twice
* did i mention i have awesome parents!?!?!!!!!! and a pretty cool brother too!!!
* i have some pretty sweet friends
* i have good hair :)
* i have a family with a cottage and a boat that are on an awesome lake that we can go to all summer long
* even though my main job is PCA work, i still am allowed to do some things that normal PCAs can't do and i am technically a nurse extern, not a PCA
* i drive a BMW (my dream car)
* i have a nice cell phone with lots of minutes :)
* oh yeah, and i have tons of people who support me through this crappy time of not passing boards!!
so i guess when i think about it that way, life could be much worse. thanks dad and bridget!

tomorrow's another day, and i am not afraid, so bring on the rain